What a Wonderful Weekends

20th December, Saturday, it was a wonderful day for me. Breakfast, movie, and a little present as it might at least have hidden some surprise on the outside. :)

I did something that relieved me on Saturday night, and that thing would be confessing myself. To confess really need guts, not just guts, you need gutssssss!!

I never expect anything from the beginning, but I hope it wont end up in a bad situation that would affect our friendship, and I was so damn lucky it didn't end up badly, but it didn't end up with a "happily ever after" ending anyway. Hehe.

I have never been so happy and excited for so long that I almost forget that kind of feeling. I don't know since when I start to lose the feeling of getting excited, last time when I got my first hand phone, the excitement and the happiness are now lost and I can't find it anywhere in me. even when I get my N95 8GB, the excitement is not there. The feeling that when you first fall for a girl during primary school is gone too. I am not saying that I never fall for my ex-gf but seriously, I have never felt so exciting falling for someone. She really bring those senses back to me.

I used to fall for her when we were in primary school. And now, after so many years, I fell for her again?? How could that be possible?? I start to think that falling for her is like a memory kept in me and it can be switch on anytime when the timing is right. How could I ever fall for somebody twice?? God, you playing with me??

Although I fall for her and she never run away because of that but it doesn't mean I am in a relationship, I AM STILL SINGLE NOW!!! No matter what, I m glad that I confessed and she never hate me for that, I want to thank God for this too. She is such a wonderful and a great friend that I will never want to lose. I can lose everything I have but she is just one of the friends that I would never give up for!! [Its not like You will let me lose everything right, my dear GOD?? ;)]

At first I didn't want to confess as I am really afraid that my I might risking this friendship. but I don't know what makes me take the risk. I am glad that i took the risk but at the same time, I am sorry for taking the risk. After all, it isn't bad just being friends. And from the very first time, I never expect anything other than just friends, is that appropriate?? Hmm, I wonder. :)

I guess we are meant to be friends ba!! There goes my happy story and left those sad story to myself, since Christmas is coming, no sad story!! Behind a happy story, there usually exist a sad one. :)

What a wonderful memory. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!

Wonder when will be the next time I can have such excitement.