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Sunday, December 20, 2009

Cold~~~

It was so cold last night that I don't need to switch on my fan while sleeping. This morning I woke up because of too cold, kinda freezing. For the first time I don't need fan throughout the whole night. I woke up about 11am, it was so cold, as cold as having an air-cond in my room. It was very nice. :)

Saturday, December 19, 2009

I was thinking....

19th Dec 09 night, 3am, which is already 20th Dec 09. I was about to go to bed then I went to stand at the balcony, don't know why I did that, most probably was too stress after studying. The night was so quiet. What I could hear was the sound of lorry and car passing by on the street. The street is not near my house, quite a distance but it was so quiet that I could hear that far.

3am in the morning, then I start wondering why should I stress myself up so much sitting at home trying to memorize as much stuff I can to go for exam, since I was able to stay up till 3am without feeling tired, why not I be like those lorry driver? Don't have to worry too much, just start driving and reach destination in time, that's all. Then can drive freely on the street where there is not much car during this late hour. Being a lorry driver I don't need to know too many things like optical fiber, how does the fiber optic transmit light which contain signal in it? what are the noise throughout the whole optical communication system? What are the material that is best for making an optical source and the photodetector? then cracking my head to remember tones of formula from easy to the hardest one. Why izit so hard to get a degree? Why must we make ourselves suffer so much?

Why? Why? Why? and the question why is still being asked by me. We know how to say our life is short, why not just enjoy our life while we can, although achievement is some kinda proud to one's own self but is it everyone can enjoy the process before he/she achieves something? Well, if can then maybe I am not the one.

Felt this way because I am too stress by now. Too many things to memorize, too many calculation to be done, too many fixed constant value that I should knw, ie: h=6.626 x 10^-34 and so on.

Or maybe its time for me to get a girlfriend. Well, I don't have the rights to choose but to those who don't mind to have a boyfriend who is not handsome, who is fat, lazy, not funny with his cold jokes, but sincerely looking for a serious relationship, no matter who you are, no matter how you look, fat thin tall short, please step forward and confess to me ok. If your attitude not suitable with me or maybe your style somehow makes me think that you are not suitable for me then I will have thousands and millions of reason to reject you, well, I hope my way to reject doesn't hurt. And if there is a reason for me to accept you, the only reason is saying "YES", that's all.

People around me all getting girlfriend except for me. My secondary classmates, uni classmates, why am I left single? Is it so hard to get a girlfriend with how I look? Maybe yes. Even my ex has found new boyfriend, not just one after we broke up but why I can't find one for myself? Does this mean that only one girl of all the women on this earth would accept me as their boyfriend? Who in this case is my ex. Or maybe she was just feeling bored and wanted to get boyfriend so simply "layan". Hmm...

I think I should stop thinking right now and continue with my studies. Wish myself best of luck in my exams as well as good luck to all my fellow friends that are sitting for exam. ALL THE BEST!!

*wanted to upload a pic of my ex, but its not good to do so... :)*

Monday, December 14, 2009

I miss "YOU"........

I miss the days where I can ride my motorbike to go anywhere I want at anytime I want. Driving a car now and I seem to forget the joy riding a motorbike loitering around. Secondary time was the best, every morning woke up early, took shower and breakfast then ride motor to school, when class finish then ride back home, when have tuition class in the afternoon then will ride again to go for tuition class. The joy riding a bike is not the excitement when you ride fast nor being able to overtake cars when there is a traffic jam, the joy riding a bike is because you can go anywhere without needing to ride on the main road, I love riding at kampung roads, can ride without helmet, so nice. Even the sun is bright, it doesn't matter, when you are moving you can feel the win on your body, most of all, you can ride freely in kampung, do not worry abt being hit by a car o a huge lorry. Riding a motorbike is so much easier than driving a car, you can put your left leg on the paddle for rear passenger if your leg is long enough, but for sure not the right leg cause you need it to brake. One more enjoying thing about riding a bike is that you don't have to get pissed off if there is someone in front of you blocking your way, if driving a car you need to wait til there is enough space for your car to overtake but riding a bike as long as the bike has enough power then what you need to do is to just accelerate and overtake, that's all!!! You can never imagine how relax you can be riding on a bike, just resting your left hand on the handle bar and your left leg on the rear paddle, aah!!! How relaxing!!! The most important thing is that when you ride a bike, it feels like you are moving yourself in the nature, air. It is really really very nice doing so. Damn, I miss the feeling riding in kampung roads, all the trees and flowers passing by your side while you ride, sometimes you can even see some cows too. I really love those shortcuts in kampung, after spending so much time in this busy town, its kinda refreshing and nice to ride through kampung without having to worry about the cars and some other huge vehicles.


Awh!!! I MISS THE DAY WHERE I RIDE AROUND THE TOWN!!!

Finally, good luck for my exam!!!