Sunday, December 20, 2009
Cold~~~
It was so cold last night that I don't need to switch on my fan while sleeping. This morning I woke up because of too cold, kinda freezing. For the first time I don't need fan throughout the whole night. I woke up about 11am, it was so cold, as cold as having an air-cond in my room. It was very nice. :)
Saturday, December 19, 2009
I was thinking....
19th Dec 09 night, 3am, which is already 20th Dec 09. I was about to go to bed then I went to stand at the balcony, don't know why I did that, most probably was too stress after studying. The night was so quiet. What I could hear was the sound of lorry and car passing by on the street. The street is not near my house, quite a distance but it was so quiet that I could hear that far.
3am in the morning, then I start wondering why should I stress myself up so much sitting at home trying to memorize as much stuff I can to go for exam, since I was able to stay up till 3am without feeling tired, why not I be like those lorry driver? Don't have to worry too much, just start driving and reach destination in time, that's all. Then can drive freely on the street where there is not much car during this late hour. Being a lorry driver I don't need to know too many things like optical fiber, how does the fiber optic transmit light which contain signal in it? what are the noise throughout the whole optical communication system? What are the material that is best for making an optical source and the photodetector? then cracking my head to remember tones of formula from easy to the hardest one. Why izit so hard to get a degree? Why must we make ourselves suffer so much?
Why? Why? Why? and the question why is still being asked by me. We know how to say our life is short, why not just enjoy our life while we can, although achievement is some kinda proud to one's own self but is it everyone can enjoy the process before he/she achieves something? Well, if can then maybe I am not the one.
Felt this way because I am too stress by now. Too many things to memorize, too many calculation to be done, too many fixed constant value that I should knw, ie: h=6.626 x 10^-34 and so on.
Or maybe its time for me to get a girlfriend. Well, I don't have the rights to choose but to those who don't mind to have a boyfriend who is not handsome, who is fat, lazy, not funny with his cold jokes, but sincerely looking for a serious relationship, no matter who you are, no matter how you look, fat thin tall short, please step forward and confess to me ok. If your attitude not suitable with me or maybe your style somehow makes me think that you are not suitable for me then I will have thousands and millions of reason to reject you, well, I hope my way to reject doesn't hurt. And if there is a reason for me to accept you, the only reason is saying "YES", that's all.
People around me all getting girlfriend except for me. My secondary classmates, uni classmates, why am I left single? Is it so hard to get a girlfriend with how I look? Maybe yes. Even my ex has found new boyfriend, not just one after we broke up but why I can't find one for myself? Does this mean that only one girl of all the women on this earth would accept me as their boyfriend? Who in this case is my ex. Or maybe she was just feeling bored and wanted to get boyfriend so simply "layan". Hmm...
I think I should stop thinking right now and continue with my studies. Wish myself best of luck in my exams as well as good luck to all my fellow friends that are sitting for exam. ALL THE BEST!!
*wanted to upload a pic of my ex, but its not good to do so... :)*
3am in the morning, then I start wondering why should I stress myself up so much sitting at home trying to memorize as much stuff I can to go for exam, since I was able to stay up till 3am without feeling tired, why not I be like those lorry driver? Don't have to worry too much, just start driving and reach destination in time, that's all. Then can drive freely on the street where there is not much car during this late hour. Being a lorry driver I don't need to know too many things like optical fiber, how does the fiber optic transmit light which contain signal in it? what are the noise throughout the whole optical communication system? What are the material that is best for making an optical source and the photodetector? then cracking my head to remember tones of formula from easy to the hardest one. Why izit so hard to get a degree? Why must we make ourselves suffer so much?
Why? Why? Why? and the question why is still being asked by me. We know how to say our life is short, why not just enjoy our life while we can, although achievement is some kinda proud to one's own self but is it everyone can enjoy the process before he/she achieves something? Well, if can then maybe I am not the one.
Felt this way because I am too stress by now. Too many things to memorize, too many calculation to be done, too many fixed constant value that I should knw, ie: h=6.626 x 10^-34 and so on.
Or maybe its time for me to get a girlfriend. Well, I don't have the rights to choose but to those who don't mind to have a boyfriend who is not handsome, who is fat, lazy, not funny with his cold jokes, but sincerely looking for a serious relationship, no matter who you are, no matter how you look, fat thin tall short, please step forward and confess to me ok. If your attitude not suitable with me or maybe your style somehow makes me think that you are not suitable for me then I will have thousands and millions of reason to reject you, well, I hope my way to reject doesn't hurt. And if there is a reason for me to accept you, the only reason is saying "YES", that's all.
People around me all getting girlfriend except for me. My secondary classmates, uni classmates, why am I left single? Is it so hard to get a girlfriend with how I look? Maybe yes. Even my ex has found new boyfriend, not just one after we broke up but why I can't find one for myself? Does this mean that only one girl of all the women on this earth would accept me as their boyfriend? Who in this case is my ex. Or maybe she was just feeling bored and wanted to get boyfriend so simply "layan". Hmm...
I think I should stop thinking right now and continue with my studies. Wish myself best of luck in my exams as well as good luck to all my fellow friends that are sitting for exam. ALL THE BEST!!
*wanted to upload a pic of my ex, but its not good to do so... :)*
Monday, December 14, 2009
I miss "YOU"........
I miss the days where I can ride my motorbike to go anywhere I want at anytime I want. Driving a car now and I seem to forget the joy riding a motorbike loitering around. Secondary time was the best, every morning woke up early, took shower and breakfast then ride motor to school, when class finish then ride back home, when have tuition class in the afternoon then will ride again to go for tuition class. The joy riding a bike is not the excitement when you ride fast nor being able to overtake cars when there is a traffic jam, the joy riding a bike is because you can go anywhere without needing to ride on the main road, I love riding at kampung roads, can ride without helmet, so nice. Even the sun is bright, it doesn't matter, when you are moving you can feel the win on your body, most of all, you can ride freely in kampung, do not worry abt being hit by a car o a huge lorry. Riding a motorbike is so much easier than driving a car, you can put your left leg on the paddle for rear passenger if your leg is long enough, but for sure not the right leg cause you need it to brake. One more enjoying thing about riding a bike is that you don't have to get pissed off if there is someone in front of you blocking your way, if driving a car you need to wait til there is enough space for your car to overtake but riding a bike as long as the bike has enough power then what you need to do is to just accelerate and overtake, that's all!!! You can never imagine how relax you can be riding on a bike, just resting your left hand on the handle bar and your left leg on the rear paddle, aah!!! How relaxing!!! The most important thing is that when you ride a bike, it feels like you are moving yourself in the nature, air. It is really really very nice doing so. Damn, I miss the feeling riding in kampung roads, all the trees and flowers passing by your side while you ride, sometimes you can even see some cows too. I really love those shortcuts in kampung, after spending so much time in this busy town, its kinda refreshing and nice to ride through kampung without having to worry about the cars and some other huge vehicles.
Awh!!! I MISS THE DAY WHERE I RIDE AROUND THE TOWN!!!
Finally, good luck for my exam!!!
Awh!!! I MISS THE DAY WHERE I RIDE AROUND THE TOWN!!!
Finally, good luck for my exam!!!
Friday, November 20, 2009
Accident
Hancur my car... :(
When I was going into petrol station then suddenly a motorbike in front of me, too late to brake, that motor can't get to stop in time too... BANG!!! She fell and both my car and her motor campak... Sigh... :'(
My beloved car... This is my personal third time accident related to car... sien... :(
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
"Untitled"
Finally, I have the mood to sit down and blog. I wanted to blog for so many things but I was just being too lazy to do so. Hmm, where should I start with. Lets start with the week before my exam.
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Saturday, one week before exam, my friend and I went to a cafe to have our lunch. I love that place cause the Mocha Cookies Blended was very tasty. The thickness of the Oreo flavor makes this drink so good that I will miss it some times.
Well, the good part is done, its too little but its really done. Now, lets talk about the bad and maybe worse part of about the shop. My friend ordered a Claypot Asam Pedas, if not mistaken, which is the food of the day. When it arrives on our table, it doesn't look very bad.
But when my friend start eating it, the spiciness of the food starts. Even I took a mouth of the source I can't stand the spiciness and I can't imagine how my friend can manage to finish it, but suffers. The fish is burned too. Minus marks for this food.
Then a plate of fried snacks arrives. There are four different types of fried snacks and I don't know what are they call in english, I can only show it here.
As it looks in the picture, not much of things but it cost about RM9 which is consider expensive cause all these snacks are cheap and can get it from anywhere you go. Well, it does taste good cause its not made from the cook in the shop. This is also a bad thing about this shop.
The worst food comes. I ordered a Spaghetti which looks very delicious and make me want to eat it so much. First bite, what is this, yucks, second bite, stil yucks, what the hell they put in this Spaghetti?? It tastes really very weird, totally different from what I expected. Maybe this is what a real western Spaghetti tastes like, I never teastes this kinda thing before. So far those Spaghetti that I ate was damn delicious, but this just SUCKS!!!
"DO NOT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER", that's what I have learn.
After that we ordered a strwberry mocha and a banana mocha, they don't taste as good as the mocha cookies blended. Conclusion, MOCHA COOKIES is tha BEST!!
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MINI PROJECT
2 days before my first paper I had a presentation for the mini project that my friend and I had done. After weeks of hardworking, seriously only he was doing the programming part, I hardly do anything, sorry bro!!! Usually presentation need to be formal, so we wore formal shirt bue when we got there everybody was wearing casual, I was like "WTF is this??", well, it doesn't matter laa as long as the presentation goes well. First thing was to try our circuit to see whether it works or not, at the same time need to try whether the our software can work on the PC in lab or not. Since we were slow then we let other group present theirs first. Just by looking at their presentation we know we are doomed!! The have made improvement on the hardware which we didn't cause it will take us a very long time to do so, the improvement of hardware make the circuit smaller and cheaper, more affordable. If they made the improvement on the hardware then they must do extra improvement at the software part to overcome the missing function of the hardware. Their software really very nice and very cool. Salute for them!!! I just hope that we can get a good grade of it.
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The exam day arrives!! The first paper was tough, too many things to study and memorize. It was really a scary paper but before the result is out, my friend manage to ask our lecturer and got our result, I hope the grade from our lecturer is true and accurate.
Before that paper, I was sitting at the foodcourt to study, it was a nice day, not many people, only a stall selling drinks. Then it starts to rain heavily, NICE!!!
My dad gave me a table light, an elephant during my exam week, but its too bright to use for study. Its nice anyway.
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Finally, the exam is over, felt so nice to have it over. Right after the exam is finish I asked another two friend to go celebrate. Well, it was suppose to be three but then one of them wanted to accompany his gf, then I had no choice cause gf is more important. Wanted to go Seoul Garden but then it was too far so we just went to Sushi King at JJ and three of us ate RM108 after discount from the member card.
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After that, there starts my one week working. During this one week I saw lots of things that I can't see when I was at home, they are all cool and interesting.
First, the UNESCO building was hit by a drunk guy. Stupid driver!!!
Don't know how much they gona pay for it. Luckily the whole building didn't collapse.
Second, while I was looking at the building then I heard a boom sound and there was a little smoke somewhere in front the Public Bank, I thought what, it was actually the Tentara Darat's bus broken, heard people said the gear box exploded. It was a busy day with all the police running here and there and the soldiers coming to town at the same time, I think there was a meeting or what la. Then the soldiers asked a huge towing lorry of theirs to tow the bus away.
As its shown in the video, the soldiers are kinda friendly. HAHA!!!
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After that one week of working, I am now enjoying my holidays by repairing my car. Spend RM400 to tint my car and its cooling now. Then went for some servicing as my car is really not good. I hope this coming semester I will take better care of my car, I don't want my car to go into workshop every sem break.
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Hah!! Write till here first, the next time I am free I want to write about the spider at my parents' shop and the big dog at my uncle's house. :)
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Saturday, one week before exam, my friend and I went to a cafe to have our lunch. I love that place cause the Mocha Cookies Blended was very tasty. The thickness of the Oreo flavor makes this drink so good that I will miss it some times.
Well, the good part is done, its too little but its really done. Now, lets talk about the bad and maybe worse part of about the shop. My friend ordered a Claypot Asam Pedas, if not mistaken, which is the food of the day. When it arrives on our table, it doesn't look very bad.
But when my friend start eating it, the spiciness of the food starts. Even I took a mouth of the source I can't stand the spiciness and I can't imagine how my friend can manage to finish it, but suffers. The fish is burned too. Minus marks for this food.
Then a plate of fried snacks arrives. There are four different types of fried snacks and I don't know what are they call in english, I can only show it here.
As it looks in the picture, not much of things but it cost about RM9 which is consider expensive cause all these snacks are cheap and can get it from anywhere you go. Well, it does taste good cause its not made from the cook in the shop. This is also a bad thing about this shop.
The worst food comes. I ordered a Spaghetti which looks very delicious and make me want to eat it so much. First bite, what is this, yucks, second bite, stil yucks, what the hell they put in this Spaghetti?? It tastes really very weird, totally different from what I expected. Maybe this is what a real western Spaghetti tastes like, I never teastes this kinda thing before. So far those Spaghetti that I ate was damn delicious, but this just SUCKS!!!
"DO NOT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER", that's what I have learn.
After that we ordered a strwberry mocha and a banana mocha, they don't taste as good as the mocha cookies blended. Conclusion, MOCHA COOKIES is tha BEST!!
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MINI PROJECT
2 days before my first paper I had a presentation for the mini project that my friend and I had done. After weeks of hardworking, seriously only he was doing the programming part, I hardly do anything, sorry bro!!! Usually presentation need to be formal, so we wore formal shirt bue when we got there everybody was wearing casual, I was like "WTF is this??", well, it doesn't matter laa as long as the presentation goes well. First thing was to try our circuit to see whether it works or not, at the same time need to try whether the our software can work on the PC in lab or not. Since we were slow then we let other group present theirs first. Just by looking at their presentation we know we are doomed!! The have made improvement on the hardware which we didn't cause it will take us a very long time to do so, the improvement of hardware make the circuit smaller and cheaper, more affordable. If they made the improvement on the hardware then they must do extra improvement at the software part to overcome the missing function of the hardware. Their software really very nice and very cool. Salute for them!!! I just hope that we can get a good grade of it.
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The exam day arrives!! The first paper was tough, too many things to study and memorize. It was really a scary paper but before the result is out, my friend manage to ask our lecturer and got our result, I hope the grade from our lecturer is true and accurate.
Before that paper, I was sitting at the foodcourt to study, it was a nice day, not many people, only a stall selling drinks. Then it starts to rain heavily, NICE!!!
My dad gave me a table light, an elephant during my exam week, but its too bright to use for study. Its nice anyway.
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Finally, the exam is over, felt so nice to have it over. Right after the exam is finish I asked another two friend to go celebrate. Well, it was suppose to be three but then one of them wanted to accompany his gf, then I had no choice cause gf is more important. Wanted to go Seoul Garden but then it was too far so we just went to Sushi King at JJ and three of us ate RM108 after discount from the member card.
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After that, there starts my one week working. During this one week I saw lots of things that I can't see when I was at home, they are all cool and interesting.
First, the UNESCO building was hit by a drunk guy. Stupid driver!!!
Don't know how much they gona pay for it. Luckily the whole building didn't collapse.
Second, while I was looking at the building then I heard a boom sound and there was a little smoke somewhere in front the Public Bank, I thought what, it was actually the Tentara Darat's bus broken, heard people said the gear box exploded. It was a busy day with all the police running here and there and the soldiers coming to town at the same time, I think there was a meeting or what la. Then the soldiers asked a huge towing lorry of theirs to tow the bus away.
As its shown in the video, the soldiers are kinda friendly. HAHA!!!
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After that one week of working, I am now enjoying my holidays by repairing my car. Spend RM400 to tint my car and its cooling now. Then went for some servicing as my car is really not good. I hope this coming semester I will take better care of my car, I don't want my car to go into workshop every sem break.
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Hah!! Write till here first, the next time I am free I want to write about the spider at my parents' shop and the big dog at my uncle's house. :)
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Finally
Finally, my exam is over. Its a huge difference compare to last sem. 3rd year really making my life up side down. Huge stress and pressure starting on 3rd year. Practical skills that I have never thought of obtaining. Looks like I should start practicing the skill of doing or constructing a PCB alrd.
3rd, the subject is hard, tonnes of pages need to be read and memorized cause its really very hard for us to know what is it and understand it. Telecommunication is something very complex and complicated, I mean the process as well as the detailed structure.
Well, I will write till here for now, I am going out to send something to a customer with my dad. Gtg nw.
I AM FREE!!! AND I AM HAPPY!!! "I'm flying without wing"... hehe...
3rd, the subject is hard, tonnes of pages need to be read and memorized cause its really very hard for us to know what is it and understand it. Telecommunication is something very complex and complicated, I mean the process as well as the detailed structure.
Well, I will write till here for now, I am going out to send something to a customer with my dad. Gtg nw.
I AM FREE!!! AND I AM HAPPY!!! "I'm flying without wing"... hehe...
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Last Paper
Tmr will be my last paper which I hope I can do my best. Well, I want to score for this paper because its not hard, only thing is memorizing, that's all. I was so damn stressed up last week but this week, especially on Tue I felt relief. Hope tmr will be a wonderful day for me. I will try my VERY BEST!!!
Good Luck to me~~~
Good Luck to me~~~
Thursday, October 1, 2009
All Stressed Up
I am all stressed up right now. Got too many things to memorize for my Saturday paper. Really a lot and am running out of time now. What can I do? I am gone cry this time. :'(
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Wah, seldom wake up automatically at 8am lately, today, I did. Has been stayed up very very late because was watching HK drama and also study. But after presentation last night, a bad one, then went to bed at 1am and woke up at 8am today. Felt like there is plenty of time for me today, must fully make use of it to STUDY!!!!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Long time didn't blog liao. Want to write something now.
Hmm, what should I write leh? Well, final exam is just around the corner but today I spent my whole damn day watching Hong Kong drama. What the hell!!??? I should be studying and preparing for final cause I am seriously running out of time.
Really stressed and sad now. :'(
Sigh~~~ Hope I can finish study by tonight. GOD bless me, forgive my laziness today.
Thank God~~~
Hmm, what should I write leh? Well, final exam is just around the corner but today I spent my whole damn day watching Hong Kong drama. What the hell!!??? I should be studying and preparing for final cause I am seriously running out of time.
Really stressed and sad now. :'(
Sigh~~~ Hope I can finish study by tonight. GOD bless me, forgive my laziness today.
Thank God~~~
Monday, September 7, 2009
Ping Pong at Night
Syok ah play ping pong at night. Sweat the hell out of me. So long didn't sweat already, feel so nice now... :)
Friday, August 21, 2009
What Friday Izit???
My friend planned to go steamboat on friday, 21st August 2009. I was so excited to go cause I never went to any other steamboat besides Carry On and the one closed down at Malim.
We were supposed to go there at 12pm, maybe 12.20pm will reach but they arrived late. Well, we still manage to eat it. I love the meat, all types of chicken, they were all well marinated. After fry the meat then it tastes really really yummy~~!!! I'm just loving it.
If I am not mistaken, I think I took some cuttlefish, white color, sticky, but after its cooked, it tastes very nice too. There are still other types of food but I cant remember all, got fried nugget, fried hotdogs and so on. Few type of drinks but I only get to try one, which is Pepsi Twist, this is the part I think I was stupid. But then the corn flavor ice cream is nice.
*I dont have the pics, when I got it then I will upload it*
After that meal, I went home and took shower then went for class. Suppose we have extra class during the night, from 8pm till 10pm but majority in class want to cancel it. Suddenly I felt upset, I had prepared my mood to sit in class till 10pm but then it was canceled. Then went to the photocopy shop to use laser printer to print our circuit. That was the time I start to feel sad and down. I thought this afternoon already made me very happy, but ended up upset. Sigh. What is wrong with me??? Maybe this Mini Project is making me felt so as its really very troublesome if I do it wrongly. Every step requires skill work, once you do it wrongly then need to redo from the beginning. Need to buy new PCB, need to cut it which is very very hard cause the board is tough, then need to print the circuit, iron it onto the PCB, make sure that all the tracks are well stick to the board then only put the whole board into a chemical. The problem is that the chemical has a limit, cant use it for more than 15 boards, which also means the chances for mistake is limited.
The the real skill comes in, drilling, I had phobia drilling things as I was admitted in hospital for 1 day and MC for one week. Scary~~!!! :'(
After drill, need to solder, my hands are not good for all this stuff as it needs really good and stable hands which I dont have. When the solder job is done, hopefully the circuit have no connection problem, else, DIE!!! After everything is done, we need to make sure that the circuit works by trying to send and receive in between 2 of us.
After that, create a software to send and to receive the message sent. It is so much work to be done!!! And we are running out of time.
Hopefully, hope that God will let us know if we have connection problem before we solder the components.
I am all stressed out now. I need one person to lend me her shoulder. God, where is her?? I need shoulder as well as the exact sign to show me if my circuit has a connection problem.
Help me GOD!!! I wana CRY!!! :'(
We were supposed to go there at 12pm, maybe 12.20pm will reach but they arrived late. Well, we still manage to eat it. I love the meat, all types of chicken, they were all well marinated. After fry the meat then it tastes really really yummy~~!!! I'm just loving it.
If I am not mistaken, I think I took some cuttlefish, white color, sticky, but after its cooked, it tastes very nice too. There are still other types of food but I cant remember all, got fried nugget, fried hotdogs and so on. Few type of drinks but I only get to try one, which is Pepsi Twist, this is the part I think I was stupid. But then the corn flavor ice cream is nice.
*I dont have the pics, when I got it then I will upload it*
After that meal, I went home and took shower then went for class. Suppose we have extra class during the night, from 8pm till 10pm but majority in class want to cancel it. Suddenly I felt upset, I had prepared my mood to sit in class till 10pm but then it was canceled. Then went to the photocopy shop to use laser printer to print our circuit. That was the time I start to feel sad and down. I thought this afternoon already made me very happy, but ended up upset. Sigh. What is wrong with me??? Maybe this Mini Project is making me felt so as its really very troublesome if I do it wrongly. Every step requires skill work, once you do it wrongly then need to redo from the beginning. Need to buy new PCB, need to cut it which is very very hard cause the board is tough, then need to print the circuit, iron it onto the PCB, make sure that all the tracks are well stick to the board then only put the whole board into a chemical. The problem is that the chemical has a limit, cant use it for more than 15 boards, which also means the chances for mistake is limited.
The the real skill comes in, drilling, I had phobia drilling things as I was admitted in hospital for 1 day and MC for one week. Scary~~!!! :'(
After drill, need to solder, my hands are not good for all this stuff as it needs really good and stable hands which I dont have. When the solder job is done, hopefully the circuit have no connection problem, else, DIE!!! After everything is done, we need to make sure that the circuit works by trying to send and receive in between 2 of us.
After that, create a software to send and to receive the message sent. It is so much work to be done!!! And we are running out of time.
Hopefully, hope that God will let us know if we have connection problem before we solder the components.
I am all stressed out now. I need one person to lend me her shoulder. God, where is her?? I need shoulder as well as the exact sign to show me if my circuit has a connection problem.
Help me GOD!!! I wana CRY!!! :'(
Monday, August 10, 2009
Tension
Monday, 10th August 2009:
I am all tensed up, having a paper tomorrow bur I don't seem to have memorized anything yet. Almost 400 slides to read through. Thursday have another paper where a lot of calculation needed and tonnes of formula to understand and memorized, still, I haven't practice any of them yet. I am really really stress now. HAve to do lab report which must be submitted on thursday, need to check a very messy and complicated circuit design, study and understand 400 slides as well as understanding and memorizing tonnes of formula and derivation, all at ones, its makes me want to cry so much right now. I've never felt so bad for such a long time. I just felt frustrated now and want to cry now, how I wish there is a gf for me now, don't have to comfort, just quietly sitting beside me so when I needed a shoulder, there is always gonna be one. A big guy like me wanting to cry?? Haha, what a joke right, but when you are up against stress that you can't afford to support anymore, this is what its going to happen.
The last time I cried because can't finish homework is when I was in kindergarten or maybe primary school, I can't remember, my mom was teaching how to write well or maybe was teach me how to do that homework, I can't do well, then I cried. It sounds like I am becoming a kid right now.
I want to cry, I want to cry!!!
I am all tensed up, having a paper tomorrow bur I don't seem to have memorized anything yet. Almost 400 slides to read through. Thursday have another paper where a lot of calculation needed and tonnes of formula to understand and memorized, still, I haven't practice any of them yet. I am really really stress now. HAve to do lab report which must be submitted on thursday, need to check a very messy and complicated circuit design, study and understand 400 slides as well as understanding and memorizing tonnes of formula and derivation, all at ones, its makes me want to cry so much right now. I've never felt so bad for such a long time. I just felt frustrated now and want to cry now, how I wish there is a gf for me now, don't have to comfort, just quietly sitting beside me so when I needed a shoulder, there is always gonna be one. A big guy like me wanting to cry?? Haha, what a joke right, but when you are up against stress that you can't afford to support anymore, this is what its going to happen.
The last time I cried because can't finish homework is when I was in kindergarten or maybe primary school, I can't remember, my mom was teaching how to write well or maybe was teach me how to do that homework, I can't do well, then I cried. It sounds like I am becoming a kid right now.
I want to cry, I want to cry!!!
Monday, July 27, 2009
Rainy Day
Monday, 27th July 2009.
Woke up at 9am++, thought want to go brunch at 11.30am, but its started to rain at about 11am. The longer I wait the heavier the rain gets. Have class at 2pm, thought if it continue raining so heavy then I don't want to go class. At 1pm, finally, the rain is not that heavy anymore, so happy, quickly put on my clothes and jump into my car and go McD at dataran pahlawan. Went to fetch my friend, it was just drizzling. When I reach at class, everybody was leaving, the class was canceled. WTH!!! I went out from my house, running in the rain as my car parked quite far, rush to my friend's house and fetch him, and the class canceled?? Sigh... I told myself earlier at home, if the God is kind enough to make the rain not that heavy then I would sacrifice a little bit and run to my car in the rain, God did reduce the heaviness of the rain, but I wasn't able to know that the class is canceled. Haha... What a prank the God made on me. Maybe the God want me to go McD for brunch, instead of the same old place where I usually go for economic rice. Hehe...
Looking at the rain from my room, sometimes, it makes me felt that I want to have a landed house with a garden, so that I can look at the rain pouring onto my garden. When it rain heavily, you can't really see things clearly out from your house, I just like to see a green color garden in the blur scene. It would be nice. :)
Woke up at 9am++, thought want to go brunch at 11.30am, but its started to rain at about 11am. The longer I wait the heavier the rain gets. Have class at 2pm, thought if it continue raining so heavy then I don't want to go class. At 1pm, finally, the rain is not that heavy anymore, so happy, quickly put on my clothes and jump into my car and go McD at dataran pahlawan. Went to fetch my friend, it was just drizzling. When I reach at class, everybody was leaving, the class was canceled. WTH!!! I went out from my house, running in the rain as my car parked quite far, rush to my friend's house and fetch him, and the class canceled?? Sigh... I told myself earlier at home, if the God is kind enough to make the rain not that heavy then I would sacrifice a little bit and run to my car in the rain, God did reduce the heaviness of the rain, but I wasn't able to know that the class is canceled. Haha... What a prank the God made on me. Maybe the God want me to go McD for brunch, instead of the same old place where I usually go for economic rice. Hehe...
Looking at the rain from my room, sometimes, it makes me felt that I want to have a landed house with a garden, so that I can look at the rain pouring onto my garden. When it rain heavily, you can't really see things clearly out from your house, I just like to see a green color garden in the blur scene. It would be nice. :)
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Songs
I've uploaded something which will play some songs. Just hoping that you will feel ease and comfortable while reading my blog. :)
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Hating Myself
5th July 2009, the whole day, the weather is so nice. Woke up at about 11am, then start with my pc, as usual, then watch show laa, watch dvd laa, after everything is done, its already 3pm. With such a nice weather, a normal person with my age should at least go for cycling, play basketball, football or at least play ping pong, what I did was sleeping at home. Damn!!! How could I have wasted such a nice and wonderful day!!! I really hate myself for being lazy like what I am now. :'( Fuck me!!!
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The second thing I hate myself is when I can't even put all the components needed to a circuit on my own. I have been doing these kinda circuit board for so long now but I still don't know how to put the components together. :'(
Saturday, 4th July 2009, I have a mini project class, we were suppose to finish putting the components then supply voltage to the circuit and measure all the necessary value, everybody mange to finish it but me. Why can't I do it properly?? Why?? Why?? Why??
Damn, I really hate myself for not being serious is the things I have done so far. Man!!! Time to get myself serious now. That Sagittarius is right, I am such a childish and happy-go-lucky guy, the real world can never be as easy as what I think. DAMN!!!
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The second thing I hate myself is when I can't even put all the components needed to a circuit on my own. I have been doing these kinda circuit board for so long now but I still don't know how to put the components together. :'(
Saturday, 4th July 2009, I have a mini project class, we were suppose to finish putting the components then supply voltage to the circuit and measure all the necessary value, everybody mange to finish it but me. Why can't I do it properly?? Why?? Why?? Why??
Damn, I really hate myself for not being serious is the things I have done so far. Man!!! Time to get myself serious now. That Sagittarius is right, I am such a childish and happy-go-lucky guy, the real world can never be as easy as what I think. DAMN!!!
Monday, June 22, 2009
Toyota Mark-X
Before this, I only get to see a sporty Toyota Mark-X parking. But today, I saw one on the street. That Mark-X was kinda rushing so I planned to follow at the back and see how it looks like. I don't know whether Mark-X has manual transmission or not, but the one I saw accelerates like one. It came fast and stable from far, when I look into my rear mirror, I got goosebumps. It came so fast and stable that makes you think it really a racing car coming towards you, that car is much larger than mine too, that's what make me felt that way. When the driver want to overtake, it just simply turn the steering and accelerate, you will never have time to react, just see it overtakes you.
When we came to the back of JJ, that Mark-X tackled the sharp bend like you never see before. Taking that line with that speed, it makes me felt that the car is so stable and good in handling. Really very shocked and surprised seeing it. It never break, even I am used to the corner, I slow down as there is a Myvvi beside me, but that Mark-X just simply turn its wheel without braking. Scary!!! With that size, the weight, that Mark-X can make such a cornering, how I wish I have one.
When we came to the back of JJ, that Mark-X tackled the sharp bend like you never see before. Taking that line with that speed, it makes me felt that the car is so stable and good in handling. Really very shocked and surprised seeing it. It never break, even I am used to the corner, I slow down as there is a Myvvi beside me, but that Mark-X just simply turn its wheel without braking. Scary!!! With that size, the weight, that Mark-X can make such a cornering, how I wish I have one.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Second day of class
Class suppose to start at 2pm, I reached there at about 1.50pm. Then start listening to some songs in my hp, 2pm has reached, only a few were in the class. Then my friends came. At 2 something, the lecturer came and not just him, we were all surprised!! The whole class only have 18 students. The smallest even class I have been. Haha~~!!!
Then that lecturer start talking for more than 2 hours. God~~~!!! He can talk for more than 2 hours without stopping, my life will be miserable after this. :(
Then that lecturer start talking for more than 2 hours. God~~~!!! He can talk for more than 2 hours without stopping, my life will be miserable after this. :(
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Going back for class luu (what a short break)
Well, after only a short two weeks of holidays, its time for me to start a new sem now. Don't feel like going for class. Only two weeks break, first week work, then thought want to enjoy during the second week but since the malay worker was on leave so I need to work too. At least get paid for it, but felt like I didn't do anything special during holidays. Still haven't fully recharged yet and now need to prepare for class already.
Didn't do really really very well previous sem, should scored more but with the result, I am satisfied. So, this sem need to work harder as there will be a Mini Project. Mini Project is all about creating something from what we have learn. Previous batch did a modem. WoW!! A modem ok, I only know how to use it, now need to create it?? Siao liao luu~~~ Hope our batch won't ask us to build something too hard.
Awh~~!! This sem need to have saturday class, from 9am til 12pm summore. Really damn sien. Can't enjoy again. Everyday class start at 12pm, can't really go for a 'date' by that time. Aarrgghhh, how annoying. Owh, luckily friday morning no class, hopefully can make it.
Just after arranging all my notes for previous sem, there's a lot of them, heavy too.
Notes haven't uploaded yet, so, its time for bed...
~~~Nitez~~~
Didn't do really really very well previous sem, should scored more but with the result, I am satisfied. So, this sem need to work harder as there will be a Mini Project. Mini Project is all about creating something from what we have learn. Previous batch did a modem. WoW!! A modem ok, I only know how to use it, now need to create it?? Siao liao luu~~~ Hope our batch won't ask us to build something too hard.
Awh~~!! This sem need to have saturday class, from 9am til 12pm summore. Really damn sien. Can't enjoy again. Everyday class start at 12pm, can't really go for a 'date' by that time. Aarrgghhh, how annoying. Owh, luckily friday morning no class, hopefully can make it.
Just after arranging all my notes for previous sem, there's a lot of them, heavy too.
Notes haven't uploaded yet, so, its time for bed...
~~~Nitez~~~
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